press pause.

"I know, I just don't understand J., I love you so much it hurts and
you treat me as if I'm worthless." Inside she's screaming, hateful of
the way she's treated. She wants to cry the tears of a thousand fears.
She wants to disappear and rematerialize in a world much like this one,
only in which he wasn’t didn't lose his sanity, a world in which
making love to him was a joint operation, where every moment he was inside of
her if paused and looped on repeat till the end of time would be her
definition of paradise.